A Little More Clarity

This post is in response to my previous post as well as to the comments I received.  Thank everyone so much for your comments.  It is so comforting to know that I am not alone.

After my update, I went for a walk.  I talked to my mom.  My mom, by the way, had a miscarriage at 10 weeks (back in the 70s before they did routine ultrasounds. Hers would have been a missed miscarriage).  She expelled the sac in one piece and took it to her Dr. who examined the 'contents'.  He told my mom that the sac was empty. 

I have also been reading and posting questions on RESOLVE's pregnancy loss support community and have found many other stories of missed miscarriage, in which the sac continued to grow and produce hcg, and some instances in which hcg levels continued to rise for weeks.

I absolutely trust my RE (yes, w&w, it was Dr H.) and his assessment of the pregnancy based on what he saw.  I think the nurse misspoke when she said they wanted to make sure they didn't miss anything at the 6w3d u/s.  Or, maybe she meant something other than what any patient would most likely infer from that statement, because on that day, my RE started the u/s in one exam room, and after not seeing anything in the small sac, quickly moved us to another exam room with a more sensitive machine.  In other words, he was thorough.  And he knew what he was looking for.

He also knows exactly what he will be looking for on Monday.   I really don't trust anyone else.  I do wish we lived close enough to our clinic to just walk in for an u/s, but we are 'out of town' patients and must plan for travel.

I've turned to my blog as a way to document the process of natural miscarriage after an IVF loss.  I've scoured the Internet over the past couple of weeks in search of detailed experiences because I really had no idea what specifically to expect.  I wanted to read about the wait, the betas, the decisions, the symptoms--everything.  After finding very little, specific to IVF and waiting to miscarry, I decided I wanted to document everything I could.

If you have included something similar on your blog, please let me know in the comments section.  I would like to not only read through your posts describing your experience, but also post a list of links to other blogs on my site.

I think I'm going to take a weekend blogging break before the u/s.  Unless something happens beforehand, you probably won't hear from me until Tuesday. 

Have a good weekend.