Today, I've lost that pregnant feeling. Up until today my symptoms
have been consistently gaining in force. It is totally baffling how I
can feel LESS pregnant at 5w4d than I did at 6dp5dt. Does the body
suddenly adjust to the hormones? Does a loss of symptoms signal a
plateau of hcg levels? Did the embryo stop growing? Is week 5 a
respite of sorts before symptoms like nausea hit full force? Where did you go, symptoms, and why did you leave?!!
It
is always around the middle of the 5th week when my symptoms begin to
slack, often after a day or two of strong symptoms. Symptoms that allow
me to feel good about the pregnancy. Then week 5 hits and the symptoms
subside and the fear takes over. After the ultrasounds show no fetal activity, I can't help but deduce that losing symptoms means losing the pregnancy, that I never experienced a lick of nausea because there was never a heartbeat. As I approach 6 weeks, all I want is nausea. Symptoms make the wait bearable.
Symptoms mean absolutely nothing and absolutely everything. You can't
trust them when you have them; they are gone when you need them the
most.
I've handled this unconfirmed pregnancy thing pretty well this time around.
I'm not freaking out about today's absence of symptoms, like my deflated
breasts and flat belly. I feel discouraged, but I'm not freaking out. I feel resigned to the fact of the matter, whatever that may be.
One week until the ultrasound.
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My symptoms seem to come and go as well and it freaks me out. Then just as I'm freaking out I will have a lovely bout of feeling like throwing up and all is well again. I'm trying to take it in stride, especially after the ultrasound last week showed all is well, but it is hard. Take good care of you and hope you get some symptoms back very soon!
New follower here. Just wanted to add that somewhere in the middle of 5 weeks I suddenly lost symtoms too. But then just after 6 weeks nausea hit hard... Wishing you the best and the return of those comforting symptoms!
It's been so long now since I was that far along I can't remember how I felt back then. Hoping all goes well for you at the ultrasound.
Symptoms are definitely sketchy in the beginning (and actually they pretty much have always been that way for me). It is enough to make one go crazy, analyzing every little thing. It is so hard. I think this is the only time in our life where we actually want to feel nausea and throw up. Hang in there. I'll be thinking about you and am sending you positive vibes for your ultrasound.
I am with you. I just wish I could have symptoms to keep my mind thinking everything is OK. I had none with my son, so why expect them now? BECAUSE I WANT THEM, DAMMIT!
Honestly, as many women don't have symptoms as those who do. It's a crap shoot. All we can do is not let it get to us (way easier said than done).
Hang in there!
Hang in there, I know it's no consolation, but some women have no symptoms at all and some women have them all, it's just so hard to tell. Sending prayers!!
Symptoms and lack thereof suck. It's just such a mind game. Thinking of you.
The first few weeks are just the hardest. But we also need to have symptoms to be reassured somewhat when we have nothing else. Hang in there, you know symptoms can easily come and go without meaning anything. I'm sending strength and positive thoughts. Fran
Hi there, just catching up. Monday is the day, right? I hope you're holding up okay as you hold your breath for the u/s. Hang in there and take good care of yourself!!!
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