Worried

I don't know if the dull, deep and centrally localized crampy feelings/twinges (can you tell I don't really know how to describe the sensation?) are just my imagination or actually there, but when I woke up this morning to find more red blood, I began to worry that something might be wrong. 

You know, because bleeding for 39 days doesn't seem normal, even for a natural miscarriage.  So I called the nurses' line for some advice. 

If the bleeding doesn't cease by Tuesday when I go in for my next beta, I will also have an ultrasound to take a look inside.  I'm this close to just scheduling a d&c, but we will see what the pantyliner looks like for next few days and what the u/s reveals, if it becomes necessary.

My RE wants to do the ultrasound, which means another road trip across the state to his office.  The funny things is, I was dreading going back to my local lab (where everybody knows my name) for the beta.  Now look what I've done. 

I'm most afraid of infection.  My uterus seems to be the only asset I have going for me fertility wise and I don't want to wreck that, too.  I feel that I am in the best hands with my RE as far as performing this ultrasound.  If I end up needing a d&c, I would want to have it done at my clinic, if possible, anyway and could schedule it right then and there.  I think.

It would be so much easier if the bleeding would just stop tomorrow or Friday or Saturday or even Sunday so that on Monday I can cancel the ultrasound, travel 5 minutes, instead of hours, to my local lab for the beta, and have my hcg levels come back at under 5. 

Probably a long shot.  But I can hope.