The last time I wrote a post titled 6 weeks I felt like a had reached a small milestone, though I really had nothing to show for it. No symptoms that told me I was really pregnant, just a deep down fear that made even writing about being 6 weeks feel like lying. The next post I would write would be Empty.
I don't have to write about how terrified I am, because you all know that. I don't really want to talk about symptoms because I know that symptoms really aren't a guarantee that everything is normal and fine. I am on so much Progesterone anyway that my boobs should be sore and I should be tired.
But I don't think that writing about being 6 weeks this time feels like lying to myself, or fooling myself into believing in something that is not. I do feel that there is a pregnancy growing inside me. I am still terrified for the ultrasound on Monday, and know that anything can happen in 5 days, but at the very least, I feel like I have made it further than last time.
I just hope to see a heartbeat. In 5 days time.
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5 days! I know how scary that first ultrasound is, and I hope everything turns out great. I'll be thinking about you and looking forward hearing how Monday goes!
I know how nervous you must be. Everything crossed that your u/s will go wonderfully and you will see that beautiful flickering of the HB. Waiting to hear about the appointment!
Hoping with you Jill!
My thoughts are with you and I'm excited for you!
Hoping with you sweetie! Sending so much love from here, I'm sure you can feel it. Fran
This time during early pregnancy is just torture! Thinking of you as you make it through the next few days. Everything's crossed that you're going to see that amazing heartbeat!!!
I definitely understands that terror. Thinking of you and hoping for a beautiful strong heart beat!
Me, too! Hoping with you and thinking of you!!
Wondering about you...sending you positive thoughts....
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