but I am not.
This cycle I had an HSG that supposedly flushed a blockage from both my tubes (what kind of blockage, was it really a blockage, what does it mean??? We don't know). My RE was positive about our chances this month, my mom was so sure that I was 'fixed' and my mil keeps asking intimate details about our babymaking practices. Even my cousin who has been my primary support, emailed, "THIS IS YOUR MONTH." I need her positivity, but she hasn't done that since our 8th month of trying.
Alas, it is not my month for the 18th time and I have an announcement: Mom, Mil, I am not pregnant. I am an Infertile.
Why do I feel like I am letting them down?
2 comments:
Its been hard for me to deal with family and inlaws asking questions about when we were going to have kids etc etc...eventually my mom in law stopped asking when we were going to make her some grandbabies...you do feel like your letting them down but hopefully it's these people that are there for you - it's your heart that is breaking b/c your having a hard time conceiving. It can be very frustrating!
I stopped telling any family or friends that we were doing infertility. I am lucky because all family live out of town. So, they would never know when I did an IUI. It became so much easier to not have their disappointment on top of mine. Something to think about. I am extremely close to my family....but it is much easier in the end when they dont know about our fertility problems. Hugs to you!
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