Fertility Diet

While I was eating breakfast this morning and browsing my infertility reading list, I came across a piece on eating for fertility. I should say that I usually stay away from these sorts of articles, I mean they were fun for the first 6 months, but now seem like pop fertility and make me feel defensive. But this was written by someone who had experienced infertility, so I read anyway, and then, got to the part that said something like, "cold cereal for breakfast is no friend of fertility...." And I read this as I am spooning my cold kashi wheat cereal into my mouth.

Well, I immediately felt defensive, as if all the fertility diets, supplements and other 'cures' toy with my infertile vulnerabilities and insecurities. When I read something that tells me to eat this or cut that out my diet (things that can actually be part of a healthy diet, I thought), it feels the same as when my CNM told me to "relax more" and "think positive thoughts."

This same writer also says elsewhere, writing about wheat, dairy, and other foods I eat, something along the lines of, "why wouldn't you sacrifice anything you could, just to know that you did everything you possibly could to conceive?"

Remember when Kate Moss said, "Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels?"

I am trying to accept the fact that I will never be able to do everything, or prevent everything, save everything, know everything or control everything. I will not survive infertility if I do not trust myself and my body, trust that I am already doing everything right, like all of us, even if I drink a cup of decaf coffee every morning (okay, 2 cups), or decide to drink a glass of wine once in while, or fertility gods forbid, because I eat cold cereal for breakfast.