12 weeks

I am trusting that I am indeed 12 weeks, even if I have to announce it as a disclaimer, even if it feels presumptuous to write it out.  It is a milestone, and I am here (in one way or another). 

Maybe I will build up the courage to take a belly shot today.  I need proof that this is really happening.  It still doesn't feel as real as I would like (can you tell?).

I don't really know what to write about 12 weeks other than I cannot wait until my next OB appointment in two weeks.  My symptoms have pretty much disappeared, like sore breasts, constipation, and frequent urination.  My nighttime trips to the bathroom have decreased down to one and I don't wake up through the night as often.  I am less tired in the afternoons but still go to bed early.  If it weren't for my constant obsessing, I would probably forget that I am pregnant.

One new symptom I can think of is that if I do not eat I get a light headache that goes away once I do eat something.  I'm not overly hungry even though I think I am eating more.  I do get full faster.  So maybe I am eating more often, but eating less in one sitting.  In the evening I stay full for hours. I felt too full last night for my glass of milk before bed.

I'm still feeling for the top of my uterus.  I'm still inspecting the toilet paper very carefully.  It has been two days since my last progesterone tab.  Thankfully I haven't had any more spotting other than a light tinge of color when I wiped over the weekend and the last of my unfortunately normal progesterone discharge stained with old blood.  But no more pantyliners!  After 8 weeks of pantyliners, my crotch feels liberated!  I'm still too afraid to wear my white underwear, though.

I am looking forward to celebrating Christmas this year with a small number of F's (adult only) family at our house.  It will be a good distraction but also low key enough to not be stressful playing host.

I'm wishing everyone a happy holiday and a happy new year.  I will probably be offline for a while (which will be good for me).  Hopefully the next time you hear from me I will still be pregnant at 14 weeks (and maybe have some belly shots to share).

I'm dreaming of a pregnant Christmas.