Beside Me Sits an HPT

(and a snoring cat)

Today I am 4dp6dFET.  Yesterday I was a wreck.  The day before, I cried several times a day.   After IVF in December I chose to ignore all symptoms after the transfer.  So I have no record of what I was feeling and nothing to compare.  For instance, yesterday I was sooo thirsty.  Symptom? 

When I googled 3dp6dt FET, my hits took me to women who were already getting positives on their hpts!  What?!  So, logically,  I ran out and bought four tests. Three FRER and one off brand.  Then I immediately peed on the off brand.

It was negative.  Of course it was.

It was one of those that give you the plus or minus in the window.  I hate those.  I don't know why I bought it.

I decided I would continue to test early.  With the idea that daily testing will take away some of the anxiety of waiting on a set test date (you know, a date where I might get an accurate reading???).

This morning, at 4dp6dFET I tested again with a FRER.  There is a second line so faint that it won't show up in a photograph.  But it is there.  I am sure of it.  Unless I am crazy.  But I've spent a lot of mornings squinting and angling FRER hpts, and it is there.  And not in the form of that colorless fake line that only infertile eyes can see, but pink.  A so very light pink line.

I won't show F because I know he won't see it.  He also won't squint for it.  In fact, he wouldn't approve of my early testing plan at all.

I'll retest tomorrow and hope the line grows darker.  Please, please grow darker!