Tuesday, April 10, 2012

More Spotting

I just used up my last FRER pregnancy test.  Why?  Not because I love seeing one pink line on a stark white background.  Actually, this time I was relieved.

Today is the third day of very light spotting.  And spotting always freaks me out.  99% of my decision making and conclusion drawing knew the spotting was due to taking more than 21 active birth control pills.  My beta returned to zero after the miscarriage, I had a heavy period after that and then I started birth control pills.  Bases covered.  Even so, I always have this irrational fear that if I were to ever get pregnant naturally it would be while on hormone replacement and lupron.  Exactly when I should not get pregnant.

I took a test, called the nurse, and now I feel reassured.

AF is banging on the door, but she can't come in yet.  She'll have to wait until Saturday.

2 comments:

Alex said...

Isn't it crazy how sometimes we can convince ourselves of things while going through the TTC rollercoaster? Everything is crossed for you and this cycle!

Rebecca said...

Glad to hear that things were negative. I definitely know those fears of what might happen if I 'missed' a pregnancy in the middle of a treatment cycle.

Thinking of you!