Tuesday, December 20, 2011

5 weeks

I am 5 weeks pregnant today. Of course I have no idea what is actually going on in my uterus, with the embryo, with this pregnancy. My fears speak loudly. I try to quiet and distract them.

I focus on symptoms. Last night I read through all the IF blogs I subscribe to searching for the early symptoms of others, or lack thereof. Mine:

1. Swollen breasts, hot to the touch at night. Though sometimes even this symptom is completely absent, usually during mid morning when I have a freak out of negative thoughts.

2. Maybe slight dizzyness, what I describe more as loopyness or feeling woozy when I'm out walking my dog (not to be confused with nausea, because I have not been graced with that symptom, though I long for it).

Umm....that is all. That is it.

Am I still pregnant? I really have no idea. I hope so.

2 comments:

Chon said...

yeah still pregnant :). I didn't get any symptoms till about week 6 and they were mainly tiredness and frequent trips to the toilet and my boobs got so big it was ridiculous!!! But I had no m/s, stinging nipples. I think everyone is just very different.

A said...

Jill, I remember feeling that way--early pregnancy is so scary, especially after infertility. Until 6 weeks, I didn't feel anything aside from some cramping. I remember throwing up the morning of our 6 week ultrasound and being THRILLED. Hang in there!