This is the first time in a year and a half that I am not devastated to see blood (F and I are living apart for another month and taking a ttc break). In fact I was pleased to see nice red blood this morning with no spotting beforehand and no clots, so far. I am feeling positive about the TCM treatment--acupuncture once a week, herb concoction twice a day and the hardest thing I have ever done--giving up my favorite ritual of the day, my 2 cups of decaf coffee.
I swore I would never give in. But last week I started thinking about why I was feeling so oppositional and defensive about coffee, wondering how 12 ounces of anything could become such a powerful part of my life that I really thought I could not live without it. Most of it was principle to the fact that so many women get pregnant on the most unhealthy diets and that I don't consume caffeine--its decaf!! But my acupuncturist explained about the acidity in coffee and linked that to my somewhat lack of fertile cervical fluid (ok, so I'm a sperm killer!) and blah, blah blah--the real question is why is it so hard to give up coffee, or anything (only temporarily, right) for that matter?
So that was the deciding point--a challenge to see if I can go six months without coffee. So far in the hot Texas summer it hasn't been too difficult. Rainy season on the Pacific Coast will be another battle.
So, am I like the last IF person to give up coffee (decaf!) or am I just giving in to the pressure?
5 comments:
I find that drinking Gemacha tea (green tea with popped rice) is just as satisfying as my old treat of coffee. The roasted rice in the tea give it a smoky flavor.
I go back and forth between the cup of coffee. Right now I'm back on it, but pretty soon, it will be out of the diet. I like what you say about being able to give something up - if you think you can't, then maybe you should...
I'm lucky that I've never been a coffee or soda drinker, but I do like my beer. Honestly, that will be the hardest thing to give up, and one of these days, I may even give it up while TTC. We'll see. I just like having a beer to relax after a hard day at work though!
You are totally not the last IFer to give up coffee. The thing is, the length of "temporary" is unknown.
I found that once I switched to decaf, I started wanting coffee less and less. Now I just have a cup when I feel like it, but usally not every day.
I have not had any soda, bread, rice, or pasta for three months now. I miss a good coke every now and then.
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