We got the call from the embryologist on Monday morning.
As of this morning you have three embryos still growing.
I held up three fingers for F to see and motioned to him in a way that meant, are we still proceeding with the cut-off plan?
From what I see here of your instructions it looks like we will be doing a transfer today?
F whispered, transfer, and I confirmed with the embryologist that yes, we would be doing a transfer.
When I hung up the phone my first thought was, wait, what did she mean by three embryos still growing? She didn't say 3 blasts, or 3 perfect embryos, or two perfect embryos and one slightly behind, she said 3 embryos still growing.
We would find out right before the transfer that we had one expanded blast, one early blast and one still in the morula stage (growing a day behind). We transferred the expanded blast and the early blast and would wait to see if the morula caught up to qualify for vitrification. This morning I got the call that the morula stopped growing. We have nothing to freeze.
I don't think the blasts looked particularly great either. I know that doesn't mean they are doomed by any means. We all know how my "perfect" looking blasts turned out.
Before I knew the fate of our morula, I think I felt more relief than disappointment that we were doing a transfer instead of biopsies that day. I can't quite identify why I feel ambivalent toward Genetic Screening for our embryos. Maybe I needed to try one more time before going that route, maybe I don't want to know the results, I'm not sure. I do know that F wanted to be able to biopsy a good number of embryos. I wanted to at least have one to freeze.
I was already in transfer mode before we got the news anyway. I was planning my week as if it were prefaced by a transfer. And here I am, typing in bed, hoping, hoping that this is the one.
I want to say this has to be the one.
11 comments:
I am hoping for you that this is the one. It's so hard... this process really takes it out of you.
I think it's great that you transferred - you never know how biopsies will affect the embryos. I'm glad they're back where they belong!!!!
Yay for transfer! My level 2 blasts didn't look the best, IMO, before our transfer and at least one of them took. Praying for you that you get a lovely BFP surprise too!
Praying so hard! Congrats on being PUPO!!!
Wow, what a rollercoaster for you. Hoping hoping hoping that one of these stick.
Congrats on being PUPO!, It sounds like you feel confident in the decision you made. I hope one of those little embryos decides to stick around!
I never got pregnant with the embryos my clinic graded as "perfect" and then when I transferred "moderate" looking ones they both stuck. I too was a bit disappointed when none of ours made it to freeze but clearly I the ones I transferred were the bestones. Congratulations and wishing you a speedy wait and great results.
PUPO you are! Congrats on making it this far. I am keeping it all crossed for you.
When is your beta?
Sorry for the crazy roller coaster! But, hoping so much that this is "the one".
Now the only thing that matters are the two on board. Keeping everything crossed for a blinding BFP! (this phrase is the one I use with cyber friends and it's a lucky one!!) Love, Fran
Thinking of you and your embryos!!! Fingers crossed that this truly is the one!!!!!
I am SO hoping for you that this is the one!!! Congrats on being PUPO!
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