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Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Weekend Trip
I've been looking forward to this fun weekend trip to celebrate my friend's fortieth birthday for most of the summer. For me, it would not just be a celebration of a friend's milestone birthday, but also an official farewell to a pretty shitty summer. However, I was getting worried that the never-ending miscarriage bleeding was going to put a damper on my swimming pool experience. Thankfully, it did not.
Mostly.
Saturday morning we went for a long bike ride, returned to the house to change into swimsuits and jump in the pool. I went to the bathroom, wiped and saw faintly pink tinged mucous on the toilet paper. Shit. I told myself it was probably just the increased mucous that can show up after a m/c and that the bicycle seat probably just put pressure on my cervix or something. It was not a return of bleeding. Please.
After swimming and sun, the spotting turned to dark brown. We went out to dinner and the cramping started. With bloating. Really bloated. Like the worst kind of PMS bloating. I thought my period was about to start. But it is too early for a new cycle. The bleeding only stopped a week ago. Any bleeding now would still be considered miscarriage bleeding. And I would be crushed.
More brown mucous the next morning and then nothing. Still nothing.
I told you I have been taking my BBT every few days to track this cycle. Before I left, my temperature was low. And now, this morning, my temperature was elevated. Could I have ovulated this weekend? Was the spotting and cramping just an uncomfortable ovulation?
Could a new cycle really arrive in two weeks? I hope so.
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6 comments:
I hope so too! It will be SOOOO nice for you to move on.
I hope it is a new cycle, too! That would be a good kickoff to the Fall and a goodbye to summer.
I hope its a new cycle- I know you are ready to put this behind you. It sounds like you had a fun weekend!
Ugh -- what a crazy cycle you are on. I just wish you would get some peace (and a break) from the bleeding and spotting and wondering. Sounds like a fun weekend -- I hope it was relaxing for you!
I'm hoping so with you! It would be so nice to be able to move on from the miscarriage.
Fingers crossed that the end of this awful cycle is almost done. Glad you had a nice weekend!
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